Saturday, April 9, 2016

Last Lecture

                So this is supposed to be the capstone of my class “Introduction into entrepreneurialism”, my last lecture or, my “final wisdom” as my favorite author (Hunter S. Thompson) would put it and I am not so sure what to tackle first so bear with me.

            First off let me give you a little advice concerning your professor Shanelle Mele. Let me tell you first and foremost that I was not a big fan of my other professors this semester, except for her. She is legit and is a great person who has helped to start breaking up a stereotype I have for people in this field of learning. If you allow her she will help to inspire and help uplift you on your journey through this class. She will also give you good practical advice in a variety of subjects should you open up to her which is something I would advise doing.

            Secondly I really want you to pay attention to the reading and videos for each week. I can be a very negative and cynical person both as from character flaw standpoint as well as someone who has been jaded by life and experience when it comes to life in general and especially in the corporate/business world. These assignments however will help even the most hard hearted and stubborn person to see that this part of the world has good people who are really trying to make a difference and do the right thing and I for one was given hope by that. I especially enjoyed this week’s video on one of the founders of Domino’s Pizza, Tom Monaghan. Here is a link to said video:

            My third point is about the entrepreneurial journal you are going to keep up on weekly. This for me has been one of my favorites because it has allowed me to vent frustrations and in turn receive guidance and reprieve from some of my feelings. Sister Mele as well also helped me to feel validated while also addressing another perspective on what it was that I would write on which is something I really appreciated as opposed to what most people would do which tends to apply additional pressure on the idea that they are right while I am in the wrong. This has become a takeaway for me in reminding me that I have that same trait but have forgotten it from being the on the defensive since I joined the church (that is a whole different story).


            Lastly I would tell you most importantly to keep an open mind and go at this class giving it a 110%. I sadly did not and I regret it in hindsight knowing that I could have come out of this class so much better off and wiser for it. So please, enjoy and work hard!










Sunday, April 3, 2016

Working Sundays...

                I am on the Insurance sales team currently for the company I work for and I really love who I work for. I have been paid better than I have ever in a job, I have great benefits, the company I work for is morally upstanding, and I have some great people to work with. If I have one complaint however it would be that we have a shift bid process once a calendar quarter that causes me to work a different shift every three months meaning that I may end up on a shift that would cause me to work Sundays, well that has happened.

            I have never liked working on Sundays. Even before I joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints I never liked working on Sundays. Even though I did not grow up in a religious house it was still instilled in me that Sunday was a day to relax, prepare, and reflect. Because of this I always seemingly was able to avoid working Sunday and enjoyed the day more than any other during the week. I need this day more than anyone realizes and now that I am a Mormon, I need it that much more.
            As member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints we regard Sunday as the Sabbath instituted by God as a day of rest and worship. I day that we sacrifice solely for Him and it in turn, we are spiritually filled and blessed. Since joining the church however there have been several attempts from employers to get me to work those day and each time I bucked to the point of moving on to another venture. This time however I do not feel like I have a choice in the matter and that is extremely frustrating to me for variety of reasons with some being obvious to others I will not mention here because of the personal nature of the matter.

            There is a possible silver lining because I applied for a position within the company that would move me to the work force management side. This job though at the bottom of the “totem pole” of the area is still a slightly higher pay for me and most of all I would be learning a whole new skill set and doing something different which I so desperately need in my life. However this position requires shift flexibility which means I could vary from working days to graves and everything in between. I would also end up working some weekends including some Sundays and holidays. With all of that being layout to me however I am not so sure what I should do and what this all means for me and my future.


            As stated before, Sundays mean so much to me that the possibility of being stuck working them sincerely breaks my heart and causes me an enormous amount of stress. Those reading this may feel that is a bit melodramatic but let me take away something of such huge significance to you in order for equally important reasons to you in order for you to be able to take care of your family. Life however is not fair and these things do happen to us all in one form or another. This will not deter me from following my God and living the Gospel and in fact, living it as whole heartedly as possible will be ever so much more important in order to be the patriarch and example of my family. If I cannot partake in sacrament with my family on Sundays, then I need to step up my game every other day to make sure I am doing what is best for them.


The Sabbath day is given throughout the generations of man for a perpetual covenant [see Exodus 31:16]. It is a sign between the Lord and his children forever [see Exodus 31:17]. It is a day in which to worship and to express our gratitude and appreciation to the Lord. It is a day on which to surrender every worldly interest and to praise the Lord humbly, for humility is the beginning of exaltation. It is a day not for affliction and burden but for rest and righteous enjoyment. It is a day not for lavish banqueting, but a day of simple meals and spiritual feasting. … It is a day graciously given us by our Heavenly Father. -President Spencer W. Kimball

Saturday, March 19, 2016

THEY STOLE MY IDENTITY!!! & My Attitude on Money


THEY STOLE MY IDENTITY!!!

This week reminded me of a very powerful and important lesson, you are never safe from having your virtual identity stolen in the technology age. On Friday I received a call from Visa asking if I had authorized some purchases in Chicago for H&M and some ATM withdrawals. Sadly I have never been to Chicago but I would not be spending money at H&M if I was. They stole about a grand from me and I didn’t even have that I my account. I am grateful for my father for helping me through this on a financial end even though he is pretty steamed about it (though I did not ask, he volunteered).

            So I am going to assume my Visa debit card was compromised the last time I filled up at my local Chevron station as this also happened to me when I was on my honeymoon about five years ago. They informed me that thieving swine are easily able to hack into the computer system that runs the pumps and clone card information from transactions. From there they make a fake card with my information on it and go ahead and have some fun on my families expense (Those bleeping cuss words!).

From here on out I have decided that I will only pay for my fuel in cash even if it takes a little more effort. I will also be having my checks deposited into my savings account instead of my credit and only transfer what is needed over for bills once they are due. HOPEFULLY this will put an end or at least make it more difficult for these swine to rob me blind!

My Attitude on Money
The following questions and answers are part of my week’s homework for one of my classes.

1     What is your attitude toward money?
I hate money so very much. I is a huge stressor in my life no matter the amount I have, don’t have, want, or need. Personally I hope that I will be able to change this attitude as I get older and wiser with how I use it and abuse it.

2   How can your view of money affect the way you live?
Well again this causes stress in my life based off of my personal filters, making my life a bit less joyful.

3    What rules are recommended for prospering?

Rule 1. Seek the Lord and have hope in him
Rule 2. Keep the commandments, that includes the temporal ones, tithing and fast offerings.
Rule 3. Think about money and plan how you can become self-reliant.
Rule 4. Take advantage of chances for learning so you will not be ignorant of these matters.
Education, as President Hinckley has taught us, is the Key to Opportunity.
Rule 5. Learn the laws upon which the blessings of wealth are predicated.
Rule 6. Do not send away the naked, the hungry, the thirsty or the sick or those who are held captive.

By the way, I love Rule 6!




Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Substantial Accomplishments

             I want to explain to you today three of the most important accomplishments I have thus far been able to accomplish in my life. I know there have been more than just three and this has been extremely tough to narrow down so I hope there is appreciation for what I have chosen and why.

Buying a home
            One of my most proud moments in life has been being able to purchase my first home. It was a lengthy process of paying down debts, saving money, working a second job that took time away from family, and a huge learning process. Because of this I have been able to learn so much about being responsible and owning up to your past mistakes. Most importantly I have been able to keep our home through a loss of job and through two jobs after the loss that was hard to live off of. We have never been late on a payment and have owned it for almost five years at this point which makes me proud. When I first bought the home a friend of mine said that, “If you can make every payment for a year then you can for five years. If you can make every payment for five years then you can pay off the mortgage.” This is wisdom I cherish.

Having Children
            Because I started the path towards adulthood late because I squandered my young adulthood for a variety of reasons and because of that I was under the mindset that I would never marry and have a family. Fast forward to today I have a two beautiful little girls that I completely adore and love more than I ever thought possible. I remember thinking that I could not possibly take care of a child let alone myself when my wife was pregnant the first time. So much has happened since that initial thought and I am glad to see how much they have helped me to grow.

Sobriety

            I am pretty sure that none of this would be possible if I had not chosen to become sober I would never have left my little mental bubble that kept me from being able to start making real progress in my life. Getting sober was far from easy as well and I have my days when I wonder what I would be had I not, but I am glad I am and will be for the rest of my life.


Friday, March 4, 2016

My NEED for the Atonement

           The last two weeks entries have been me being extremely honest, open, and showing you how hard I am to myself. The reason why is because I have had the impression that in order to ever truly become successful in my own business or career, I would need to open up about these feelings and conquer them. However I have always had a hard time attempting to do that on my own, thankfully there is the Atonement of the Savior which not only cleanses me from sin, but helps me heal mentally and spiritually and I cannot express how thankful I am for that.     

          This past week I was reminded of how cherished of a blessing this needs to be in my life as well as a simple and yet profound truth:

No matter my effort, it will be Christ who has made it possible for my efforts to accomplish anything I need it to do.

This is the talk that helped remind me of this:



For the remainder of this entry I want to share something else I wrote on another one of my blogs centered around my spiritual views:

There is no greater moment in my life then when the Atonement of Jesus Christ “clicked” for me. For those of you who may not have ever heard or understand the term Atonement, it is a commonly used by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to refer to the suffering and death of the Savior. For us we believe that the crucifixion was just a portion of what Jesus went through during those last few days for us. I think our bible dictionary would better to explain it then I can. Here is a portion of it:

“The word describes the setting “at one” of those who have been estranged and denotes the reconciliation of man to God. Sin is the cause of the estrangement, and therefore the purpose of atonement is to correct or overcome the consequences of sin…
His [Jesus Christ] divine Sonship, His sinless life, the shedding of His blood in the garden of Gethsemane, His death on the cross and subsequent bodily resurrection from the grave, He made a perfect atonement for all mankind.”

                If any of us have any knowledge of Jesus Christ then we know that He died so that we may be forgiven of our sins. However it goes on to be so much deeper than just forgiveness of our sins. The Atonement as a whole included Christ suffering in the garden of Gethsemane. “Which suffering caused myself, even God, the greatest of all, to tremble because of pain, and to bleed at every pore, and to suffer both body and spirit…”
You might be asking to yourself “what suffering was this”? Well look at your life, it is all that you have suffered, we have suffered. It was the combined weight of all mankind’s suffering, pain, and heartbreak. This very intimate detail of the suffering in the garden shows us that when we suffer, we may never be alone, we can call upon our Savior who has felt firsthand just what we are feeling.

Here are some quotes I wanted to share:


The Atonement of Jesus Christ provides the cleanser necessary to be made pure and clean, the soothing salve to heal spiritual wounds and remove guilt, and the protection that enables us to be faithful in times both good and bad. 
Come and See, By Elder David A. Bednar, General Conference, 10/2014
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While you are in the temple, listen to the words of the ordinances, ponder them, pray about them, and seek to understand their meaning. The temple is one of the best places to come to understand the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ. Seek Him there. Remember... 
Make the Exercise of Faith Your First Priority, By Elder Richard G. Scott, General Conference, 10/2014
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The gospel of Jesus Christ opens the path to what we may become. Through the Atonement of Jesus Christ and His grace, our failures to live the celestial law perfectly and consistently in mortality can be erased and we are enabled to develop a Christlike character. Justice demands, however, that none of this happen without our willing agreement and participation. It has ever been so. Our very presence on earth as physical beings is the consequence of a choice each of us made to participate in our Father’s plan.9 Thus, salvation is certainly not the result of divine whim, but neither does it happen by divine will alone.10 
Free Forever, to Act for Themselves, By Elder D. Todd Christofferson, General Conference, 10/2014
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If we are not aware of what the Savior’s sacrifice can do for us, we may go through life carrying regrets that we have done something that was not right or offended someone. The guilt that accompanies mistakes can be washed away. If we seek to understand His Atonement, we will come to a deep reverence for the Lord Jesus Christ, His earthly ministry, and His divine mission as our Savior. 
The Reason for Our Hope, By President Boyd K. Packer, General Conference, 10/2014
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A powerful expression of that love is what the scriptures often call the grace of God—the divine assistance and endowment of strength by which we grow from the flawed and limited beings we are now into exalted beings of “truth and light, until [we are] glorified in truth and [know] all things.”8... 
The Gift of Grace, By President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, General Conference, 4/2015
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We often speak of the Savior’s Atonement—and rightly so! In Jacob’s words, “Why not speak of the atonement of Christ, and attain to a perfect knowledge of him?”4 But as “we talk of Christ, … rejoice in Christ, … preach of Christ, [and] prophesy of Christ”5 at every opportunity, we must never lose our sense of awe and profound gratitude for the eternal sacrifice of the Son of God. The Savior’s Atonement cannot become commonplace in our teaching, in our conversation, or in our hearts. It is sacred and holy, for it was through this “great and last sacrifice” that Jesus the Christ brought “salvation to all those who shall believe on his name.”6 
The Gift of Grace, By President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, General Conference, 4/2015
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That first Easter sequence of Atonement and Resurrection constitutes the most consequential moment, the most generous gift, the most excruciating pain, and the most majestic manifestation of pure love ever to be demonstrated in the history of this world. Jesus Christ, the Only Begotten Son of God, suffered, died, and rose from death in order that He could, like lightning in a summer storm, grasp us as we fall, hold us with His might, and through our obedience to His commandments, lift us to eternal life. 
Where Justice, Love, and Mercy Meet, By Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, General Conference, 4/2015
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...For those who feel they are alone, you can stand resolutely in righteousness knowing that the Atonement will protect and bless you beyond your ability to fully understand. 
The Lord Is My Light, By Elder Quentin L. Cook, General Conference, 4/2015
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If the grim realities you are facing at this time seem dark and heavy and almost unbearable, remember that in the soul-wrenching darkness of Gethsemane and the incomprehensible torture and pain of Calvary, the Savior accomplished the Atonement, which resolves the most terrible burdens that can occur in this life. He did it for you, and He did it for me. He did it because He loves us and because He obeys and loves His Father. We will be rescued from death—even from the depths of the sea. 
The Lord Is My Light, By Elder Quentin L. Cook, General Conference, 4/2015
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...we testify that the Atonement of Jesus Christ has anticipated and, in the end, will compensate all deprivation and loss for those who turn to Him. No one is predestined to receive less than all that the Father has for His children. 
Why Marriage, Why Family, By Elder D. Todd Christofferson, General Conference, 4/2015
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...Son of God, Jesus Christ, suffered and died to atone for Adam and Eve’s transgression, thereby providing resurrection and immortality for all. And since none of us will have been perfectly and consistently obedient to the gospel law, His Atonement also redeems us from our own sins on condition of repentance. With the Savior’s atoning grace providing forgiveness of sins and sanctification of the soul, we can spiritually be born again and reconciled to God. Our spiritual death—our separation from God—will end.15 
Why Marriage, Why Family, By Elder D. Todd Christofferson, General Conference, 4/2015
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Highlight - Blue - Jun 04, 2015:
...of the Atonement makes repentance possible and quells the despair caused by sin; it also strengthens us to see, do, and become good in ways that we could never recognize or accomplish with our limited mortal capacity. Truly, one of the great blessings of devoted discipleship is “the peace of God, which passeth all understanding” (Philippians 4:7). 
Therefore They Hushed Their Fears, By Elder David A. Bednar, General Conference, 4/2015
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...which can reclaim each one of us, bears no scars. That means that no matter what we have done or where we have been or how something happened, if we truly repent, He has promised that He would atone. And when He atoned, that settled that. There are so many of us who are thrashing around, as it were, with feelings of guilt, not knowing quite how to escape. You escape by accepting the Atonement of Christ, and all that was heartache can turn to beauty and love and eternity. I am so grateful for the blessings of the Lord Jesus Christ, for the power of procreation, for the power of redemption, for the Atonement—the Atonement which can wash clean every stain no matter how difficult or how long or how many times repeated. The Atonement can put you free again to move forward, cleanly and worthily, to pursue that path that you have chosen in life. I bear witness that God lives, that Jesus is the Christ, that the Atonement is not a general thing that is for the whole Church. The Atonement is individual, and if you have something that is bothering you—sometimes so long ago you can hardly remember it—put the Atonement to work. It will clean it up, and you, as does He, will remember your sins no more. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen. 
The Plan of Happiness, By President Boyd K. Packer, General Conference, 4/2015
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...Our spirits are damaged when we make mistakes and commit sins. But unlike the case of our mortal bodies, when the repentance process is complete, no scars remain because of the Atonement of Jesus Christ. The promise is: “Behold, he who has repented of his sins, the same is forgiven, and I, the Lord, remember them no more” (D&C 58:42). 
The Plan of Happiness, By President Boyd K. Packer, General Conference, 4/2015
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On Easter Sunday we celebrate the most long-awaited and glorious event in the history of the world. It is the day that changed everything. On that day, my life changed. Your life changed. The destiny of all God’s children changed. On that blessed day, the Savior of mankind, who had taken upon Himself the chains of sin and death that held us captive, burst those chains and set us free. Because of the sacrifice of our beloved Redeemer, death has no sting, the grave has no victory,1 Satan has no lasting power, and we are “begotten … again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ.”2 
The Gift of Grace, By President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, General Conference, 4/2015
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The burdens His faithful servants must carry in life are made lighter by His Atonement. The burden of sin can be taken away, but the trials of mortal life for good people can still be heavy burdens. 
The Comforter, By President Henry B. Eyring, General Conference, 4/2015




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Friday, February 26, 2016

I Don't Believe In Myself


            For what it is worth, there was once upon a time that I believed that I could be anything I wanted. I remember as a little boy I would write little stories and comic books, staple them together, and then hand deliver them to my mom to read and validate my efforts. She always praised me for my talent and efforts. She truly believed in me and thought that I had a chance at becoming an author and I wanted so badly to prove her right.

            One thing that will always stand out to me was that my mom always read and because of that I read all the time too. I would go to the library with her and come home with stacks of books and then write in an attempt to mimic what I liked best of those books. I always wanted to be a published author, but I can’t even get consistent traffic on any of the three blogs I have started. I feel like a failure.

            I have been trying all week to remember the exact point in my life when I became broken and stopped believing in myself. I am pretty sure I was in my senior year of high school when I finally stopped fighting it and just gave into the deep abyss of despair that is giving up on one’s self. Now at the age of thirty-four going on thirty-five I have become stuck in this muck and cannot seem to get the footing needed to get out. The only reason why I try to move is for the sake of my girls and my eternal companion.

            It has been so long since I thought I could accomplish something of great worth that I have a hard time seeing any redeeming quality within myself, others claiming I am a child of God seems non sequitur. Yet I sit here in my home, wife having fell asleep on the couch and two beautiful girls upstairs in their warm beds. I don’t see what my girls see in me but whatever it is, it seems to be the same spark my mom saw in me as a child. I can see it in their eyes and it seems so foreign to me because I used to believe that anything good in me died long ago.

Yet here they are, both girls being the sweetest, most beautiful souls I have ever come to know and they are here in part, because of me, they are in extension of me. My wife stays by my side because she sees in me the potential I could only dream to see in the mirror the next time I look in it. My father who has never given up on me no matter how many times he was burnt for his efforts. My mom for believing in me, even though she didn’t live to see her son become the author she knew he would one day become.


Here I am in agony and pain because I have not yet given up, or given myself a chance.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Get Organized!!!

            I need a revolution in my life by any and all means necessary. The system is broken, corrupted, and no longer is successful in doing what it was originally intended to do. The old way of doing things are no longer working, it is the future man and times are a changing! I feel completely and totally oppressed and abused with no real way of winning with the way things are ran right now and I cannot, nor will not take it anymore! I need a change, the system needs a change, and it is time to rebel!
            In the past five years my life had change a tremendous amount and I have not been doing very well at keeping up with everything. I have gotten married, and two years later I had my first child. After some time my mother died and I lost a really good job two weeks after. Five months later I had my second baby on my first day back to school and from there the responsibility and the normal every day “to do” list has blown out of proportion.
            These days I am having an extremely difficult time keeping up with all my responsibilities. I have virtually no downtime and I have zero time to myself. I feel constantly tired and I am fast approaching a burn out. I know it is not because of everything I have on my plate, but it is due to the fact that everything I do has spiraled into chaos. I cannot take it anymore and I need a change. I need to find a way to get back on track, get “it” together and get organized. The question is how?


            To be continued…


Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Wanted: Joy in the Journey




When I was young I never really wanted to work a nine to five job so when I started working at the age of sixteen I was already going in with a bad attitude. Since then there has rarely ever been a time when I did enjoy the job I had at that time and that made things got from bad to miserable. Added to my attitude was the fact that most of the jobs I have ever had are ones I never wanted to step foot in to being with.

My first job was at “Peter Piper Pizza” which in retrospect not too shabby of a job. I got to eat free pizza and making pizza was fun. I did not care for the commute to Clearfield on the bus and generally did not want a job. Fast forward to after I graduated High School and I was working as a janitor at a local J.R. high school and really did enjoy what I did. I was able to give the kids a clean environment to learn in as well as having good people to work with. I had some “extracurricular” activates I enjoyed at the time and the environment allowed me to partake in that without issue. I also worked alone a lot which allowed me to work at my own pace and gave me time to think. Later down the road I ended up working for a telemarking company selling long distance to existing customers and then things you would see on infomercials.

This was in the total opposite spectrum of the job market I wanted to be a part of and yet, for the better part of thirteen years now I have been stuck in it due to being good at what I do and not having enough experience to do anything else (in the eyes of others). In this time I was able to be promoted at one job from a “Virtual Brand Advocate” to a “Web Community Manager” position.

I adored this job because it allowed me the ability not only to mostly work at my own pace, but also gave me much needed managerial and training experience. I also was able to mostly be to myself and yet at the same time, be social, it was a great balance. In addition to that I was able to use my imagination and give feedback which I really enjoyed. Sadly a simple mistake would lead me down back into the ranks of being on the phones, with a different company.

I am looking forward to exploring myself and my passion more in college because I am starting to get a picture of what brings me joy in the work force and I want to find and forge a path that will allow me to not only take care of my family, but also allow me to find joy in what I would be doing. This is important to me because I know I deserve better then to be stuck on the phones for the rest of my life!



Saturday, February 6, 2016

Straight Outta….Legal advice?!

                As this blog is an assignment for a class I am taking at BYU Idaho, the response from class mates and my professor could possibly be interesting. The reason why I say this is because the inspiration for me post came to me last night from watching the biopic “Straight Outta Compton”, but before we get into the meat of the message here tonight, please allow me a minute to explain myself.

                Picture me as a young thirteen year old boy attempting to find himself in the different cliques that composed the landscape of junior high schools in the 90’s. I was in 7th grade and up until that point I had never liked “rap” music due to the influence of my parents who was mainly into 70’s rock and horrid 80’s pop. One day after school my friend Courtlund and I returned to his home and he wanted me to listen to something different that I had never heard of before. The artists name was Ice Cube and the album was called “Lethal Injection”. Courtlund had me sit in a banana chair right next a speaker while he put the CD in his parents stereo. From there we listened to the introduction titled “The Shot” which followed Ice Cube pretending to be a doctor giving an apprehensive man a simple shot in the arm. Everything seemed normal as Cube narrated prepping the man’s arm for his shot when you suddenly hear, BAM! I jumped like a cat at the loudest gunshot I had ever heard to that point in my life and it was right then I was hooked. So when the biopic on a group I grew up listening to came out, I wanted to take a moment and see these men who I looked up as a kid be shown in what would be a different light.

            NWA as a group was founded by Dr. Dre, Ice Cube, DJ Yella, MC Ren, and Easy-E during the late 80’s. They pulled their talents together and put out a successful single titled “Boyz in the hood” which they recorded, and released independently. This single let them into the sights of one Jerry Heller who would manage them for the duration of the group’s tenure. It during this tenure that Jerry Heller and defacto leader of the group Easy-E pressured the remaining members to sign contracts without allowing them time to read them over or having proper legal counsel. The others like Dr. Dre felt backed into a corner almost being forced to sign because they had yet to be paid for their efforts. Heller used this to their advantage by waving a check for 75 thousand dollars in front of each of them in exchange for the signature he needed to keep milking them like cows. Heller and Easy where easily making a hundred thousand for every thousand the other members of NWA earned due to these contracts. They were being legally screwed over all because they did not take the time to seek legal counsel to validate the content of the contract.


            This movie served to be a public service announcement to someone who wants to explore the options of being an entrepreneur, consultant, or contractor in the future. Sadly we live in a world where someone’s handshake and word is not enough to guarantee they will fulfill their end and all three career paths will create times when a contract will be needed. I am going to make sure when I am ever in a position like this, I will have the proper representation looking over any contract before I sign it. If that a rift or if the other party objects then I will take my services elsewhere because I would rather be broke then screwed.



Saturday, January 30, 2016

Week 3- One thing I don't want to be when I grow up!



Nothing sends me into a rage so harsh that my bile ducts go into overdrive like having to deal with salesmen. I abhor sales as I view most jobs and careers with the word “sales” in it as something only the worst of humanity actually enjoys doing. Now those reading this might be saying to themselves, “But Brad, you are an insurance salesmen are you not?”

To them I say yes but what I do does not involve the normal paradigm as to what a sales job typically rotates around, which is a lack of ethics and the willingness to shake down every one they come in contact with including their very own mother if needs be. The industry terms of “rebuttal”, and “up-sell” sends me back to a couple of the first jobs I ever had where the name of the game was to push something on someone so hard and so fast that they didn’t even have a chance to breathe. If you have never experienced this phenomenon then please consult via telephone with a telemarketer selling an infomercial product of your choosing. After spending forty minutes attempting to make a simple purchase of a zit cream or that pressure cooker you saw will have you wanting to jump out your nearest window.

I have been a telemarketer who has sold a variety of products ranging from long distance phone service to pro-actively up-selling a catalog of products to unsuspecting victims just wanting to get their zit cream. I hate this world and hate those who thrive in it because they have no respect for you or me as a consumer and as a human being.

           Going back to my current job however, will have me coming off as a hypocrite in a sense because I am an insurance salesmen and I really enjoy my job. What I enjoy most is that it is the antithesis of all the other sales jobs that I abhor. I work for a reputable company whose culture really is looking after the customer and does not just use fake empathy as a sales tactic. In addition to that I am not constantly belittled and treated as the scum of the earth if I am not “killing it” one day, or week. There are legalities within insurance that make manipulation illegal and I adore that about the industry. Most importantly I help to inform everyone I speak with on just what their auto, home, renters, or dwelling insurance does and what they are paying for which just gives me the warm squishes. I love being able to help and educate the consumer because what I sell is not only important, but I can very much save someone from loss and pain by showing them what that extra couple of dollars a month can do for them.



Saturday, January 23, 2016

Week Three- Case Study On Magdalena Yesil And Why She Makes Me Mad

This week in one of my classes I had the opportunity to discover and learn a little about entrepreneur that has been very blessed in her field because of her passionate work ethic which included always studying relevant information in her field. Below is a little tidbit about her:

Magdalena Yesil
This Turkish-Armenian entrepreneur sold her company CyberCash (a pioneer in eCommerce) to Verisign. Now she's an angel investor and partner with US Venture Partners (USVP).

Long story short, this woman has been living the “American Dream” in “Silicon Valley” by doing what she loves best. What she does best seems to be starting new companies and getting them off on a good foot in the technical industry. She thrives off of it and she’s been very successful and happy doing it.

Now while her journey in life might be uplifting, inspiring, and give hope to people, I on the other hand could not help but to look at all of my flaws and the characteristics she has that I wish I had but lack. This has induced feelings of envy towards her and shame for my shortcomings and yes I know better to allow these thoughts to invade and “blah-blah-blah” but tough, I know what potential I have wasted in my life and I have yet to forgive myself for my past.

In addition to this negative self-reflection however came another emotion that you the reader might not care for. That emotion is anger. You might be asking yourself why and I will tell you. The “American Dream” in 2016 is almost extinct and has been for quite some time now.

I remember growing up being told, “You can be anything you want” and believing that until I became an adult. Well not everyone can be president or an astronaut, the majority of us will end up working jobs we hate or at the very least can, “Put up with”. Magdalena is in a very, very small percentage of the US population that is able to really do what she wants and achieving the ever elusive “American Dream”. Why I am angry is because for every one Magdalena, there are thousands of others with the same imagination, talents, fortitude, intelligence, and drive but will end up anywhere between “flipping burger lane” and “boring office job avenue”. That is just a fact jack and there is nothing that can be done about it because if everyone was a Magdalena, no one would ever be able to get a delicious, greasy hamburger.

On one final note to drive my point home, I would like to share some lyrics from a song titled: "9-5ers Anthem" by a Hip-Hop artist who goes by the name Aesop Rock.

We the American working population
Hate the fact that eight hours a day
Is wasted on chasing the dream of someone that isn't us
And we may not hate our jobs
But we hate jobs in general
That don't have to do with fighting our own causes
We the American working population
Hate the nine to five day-in day-out
But we'd rather be supporting ourselves
By being paid to perfect the pastimes
That we have harbored based solely on the fact
That it makes us smile if it sounds dope


Thursday, January 14, 2016

Someone I Look Up To- Abbie Hoffman


“It's embarrassing when you try to overthrow the government and you wind up on the Best-Sellers list.”
Abbie Hoffman
on his success with Steal This Book

While Abbie Hoffman may not be so much be someone I look up to these days, when I was younger I wanted to be a lot like him. What made me look up to him was his book titled “Steal This Book” which as the title implies, meant you stole that book and did not buy it. In fact when the book was published he very much advocated people stealing the book because he didn’t write it for the money.  Because of this attitude he ended up having his book not only historically stolen, but it because a national best seller. I love this because the irony is thick enough to choke on and shows the true character of the man for good and ill. He was a rebel with both political savvy and charisma and looked up to what he was able to accomplish within the “hippie” subculture.

These days I don’t look up to him for the more unethical situations and philosophy he advocated but I still look up to him for bucking a corrupted system that needs to be fixed. Under all the hippie dippy stuff in the book I like how it advocated for looking after the little guy and having charity for one another, enough to turn it into a lifestyle (even if it was a misguided one).  Lastly I believe we need more people like Abbie Hoffman in the world to challenge the status quo but do so ethically and with a purpose to help us all become better people in a world where corruption rules. As an entrepreneur, I would want to be the Abbie Hoffman for my own cause.


To keep in the spirit of the man, here is a free PDF version of “Steal This Book”




                                

Week Two- Randy Pausch's Last Lecture and “What I Want To Be When I Grow Up”


        This week’s entry I would like to focus on “what I want to be when I grow up”. To start off I just want to state just how envious I am of those I’ve known in my life who have always known what they have wanted to be when they grow up.  Even if they’ve never achieved it, they have at least known and most have made an actual attempt while I never have.  Honestly I hate being asked this question for two reasons:

1. I have never believed in myself enough to think that I could achieve my dreams.
2. I have been so down on myself for so long of my adult life that I don’t even really know what I want to be that doesn’t sound like a pipe-dream at this point.

This was so much easier in childhood because I hadn’t been stomped on by life yet and thought I could achieve anything, even fictional things. I remember the first career I ever wanted was to be a “Ghost Buster” and I can guess that I don’t need to tell you why that didn’t happen. Later I wanted to be a Top Gun pilot and fly F-16’s which was fueled by a love of both the movie “Top Gun” and that my dad served in the Air Force on the flight line.  As I got older I ended up needing glasses and that killed that dream.

A little later I decided I wanted to get into law enforcement with the ultimate goal of either becoming a detective or leaving and starting my own private detective business. I also within that same realm thought seriously about joining the Air Force like my father to become an MP to get the experience needed. This never happened because as I started moving towards that goal I started suffering from horrible panic attacks to the point that it disabled me at the start of high school. I would soon after be diagnosed with an anxiety disorder with depression to boot. In addition to this my heart was broken by my supposed high school sweetheart and all of this helped me to start down a path of substance abuse and depression so deep that it enveloped almost the whole of my 20’s.

In my 20’s I could only seem to find work doing telemarketing, customer service, and technical support. I abhor this line of work and never saw myself in it. Today I work in insurance sales for a great company.  While I am good at this and have gotten good at working on phones, it is not what I want to be when I grow up and at 34, I feel like my options are extremely limited.
What I really want to do now is teach Seminary or Institute.
To be continued…



For Class:
1. Why do you think Randy Pausch was able to achieve so many of his childhood dreams?
His parents allowed him creative freedom and that cultivated confidence and imagination.

2. Do you feel that dreaming is important? Why or why not?
It is critical for someone to not only enjoy life, but to set goals and have the drive to achieve them.

3. Discuss at least one of your childhood dreams. Explain why you believe you can or cannot achieve this dream.
So I think I explained most of my childhood dreams in detail already the one I didn’t, was to become a Ghost Buster. I know that the obvious answer here is that I can’t achieve this dream because it is fiction. But I could attempt to any number of other fields ranging from being a paranormal investigator to a “fortune teller”. While one maybe a fun hobby, the other one would just be me flimflamming people out of their money.






A video clip from Randy Pausch's Last Lecture

Friday, January 8, 2016

Week 1- Introduction

For those of you stumbling upon this blog I want to give you a little background information:

This blog was created for a college class in pursuit of my Bachelor’s degree in business, (I haven’t narrowed it down any further than that). My professor has asked this journal/blog be created based off the idea that a successful person is so in part because of reflection and review of information learned and life experience revisited. Personally I agree with the idea (Hence why I have two other blogs) and have hopes that this blog will help me to be successful in not only my educational goals, but also my current career in insurance sales.

In preparation of this blog I was asked to read an essay titled: “Your Entrepreneur’s Journal” by Jeff Sandefer for the Acton Foundation for Entrepreneurial Excellence.  A key point I took away from this comes from the sub-heading titled: “Journaling to See the World Differently” in which Jeff states that keeping a journal like this helps you to internalize “one of the most important habits of a successful entrepreneur—relentless curiosity.” I like this because not only is this a principle that I can take away not only for this aspect of my life, but in all aspects. I also appreciate that this essay has helped to give me better tips in staying on top of my other blogs as they act as journals for my other thoughts and experiences.


This should be an interesting assignment/experiment for me because I never thought I would be in school for a business degree. I’ve never really saw myself in the “business world” working in a corporate environment. I’ve never once had a desire and yet all of my working life has been in in this environment in one form or another. I view this world to be corrupt and self-serving. The proof is in the pot, and a prime example of this is the former stockbroker and trader Jordan Belfort (The Wolf of Wall Street). My hope at the end of all of this is taking what I’ve learned along with my growth spurts and applying it to help as well as serve others.